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Is it really almost March 1st?  

Who is with me and feels like it should be December 26th?

I miss writing personal things in this space - whether you read it or not.

So guess what I am in the mood for tonight…..?

I am heading to Denver tomorrow to watch my big girl play soccer - remember when 
I wrote about soccer weekends HERE and HERE?
My girl is a junior in high school and I vowed that this year I would travel
with her as much as possible to watch her play.  Her senior year club soccer season will
not come with much travel so this is really IT - like the end of my soccer mom days!
What?????  She will sign her National Letter of Intent to play for Saint Louis University
next year and then I will be a college 'soccer mom' and will have to 
travel to see her play at home - and she may or may not be in favor of that????
I am really feeling the bitter sweetness of letting my baby bird fly……
it's not easy and I don't believe I am handling it well.  Being a mother
has been my life's greatest joy and greatest accomplishment, sending this
human out into the world brings both a huge sense of accomplishment 
but also great sadness that it is over……I enjoyed every minute of it,
even the puke, the poo, the tantrums, the uncomfortable parent/teacher 
conferences, the teen eye-rolls……..every.minute.of.it.

My little girl is finishing 8th grade - and will overlap in high school with 
her big sister next year.  I am excited for them to have this year together - 
carpooling to school and a big sister to show her the ropes.
They are very different, my girls, so I can't wait to see what 
high school brings for my little girl.  She is very much ME - and I am
encouraging her to pursue her creative dreams!  She will never 
win a state soccer championship or play a D1 sport in college - but this
girl is going to pursue her own passions - fashion, design, performing.
I am certain she is REALLY not looking forward to having me
and her daddy's FULL attention when her sister goes to college - 
ha, ha, ha!!!

Me - well, I am still trying to balance being a mom and running my growing
design business.  New clients and faithful clients continue to 
challenge me creatively.  I have learned SO much and become better,
both as a designer and as a person.  I am grateful.  
I turn 49 years young in April ……THAT is unbelievable.
I am proud of those years but am always researching a better anti-wrinkle cream.
My husband and I also celebrate our 25th wedding anniversary 
in April - we are planning a BIG trip! 

We are also celebrating living in our Portland home for FIVE years
this spring!  That is a record for our family - can you believe it?
I will admit - scouring the real estate listings is a frequent habit
of mine but my hubby says we are not moving.  So I have some fun
plans to make some changes in our current home - some I have wanted
to do for a long time, others that indicate a new aesthetic for me.
I am excited to 'downsize' in my current home.

Life - it's bring growth and change, opportunities, challenges and reasons
to celebrate, contemplate and set some goals……it's a GOOD thing.